Wherever she is in the world on October 12, Jessica Hardy feels close to her brother, Billy, who died in the Bali bombings on that day four years ago.
This time, instead of attending the Southport Sharks' annual tribute Australian football game on the Gold Coast, Hardy finds herself on the other side of the world.
But she will remember, in another special way, October 12, 2002, when two terrorist bombs killed 202 people in the tourist centre of Kuta.
The former Big Brother contestant will join other Australian victims' families and friends and survivors at the unveiling of a permanent memorial in central London dedicated to all those who died, including 88 Australians.
Hardy felt it was important to attend now that she is living in the United Kingdom.
"I just feel that if we can band together, us Australians, somewhere, somehow, no matter where I am in the world, I feel close to him," Ms Hardy said.
"I think it's quite a touching thing to have all countries unite.
"I've only been back to Bali once and when I had Aussies there, it feels a bit more relieving to face it with them, especially being so far from home."
Billy Hardy, 20, was in Bali for an end-of-season football trip with Southport Sharks teammates. He was the only one who didn't make it home.
"Everyone says that time will heal ... but I don't think it does," Ms Hardy said.
"I don't want to say, 'woe is me' and 'poor thing' and 'we're such victims,' but I'm still awaiting his return from holiday.
"I think, 'you've been gone long enough now, please come back'."
UK Bali Bombing Victims' Group spokeswoman Susanna Miller said relatives and survivors from all over the world would see the memorial unveiled by the Prince of Wales and the Duchess of Cornwall at Clive Steps, opposite St James's Park, on Thursday.
Miller's brother Dan, a 31-year-old lawyer based in Hong Kong, was among the 28 Britons and 57 Europeans killed in the bombings.
"It was one of the first things that people talked about, the importance of trying to get a memorial in the UK because of our relatives ... and the scale of the tragedy on a European level," she said.
The memorial features a marble globe with 202 carved doves - one for each person who died.
A wall behind bears the victims' names, which will be read out at the unveiling ceremony.
Australian High Commissioner to the UK Richard Alston will read out the Australians' names.
"It was very important for us to name all of the victims because it's very easy for people to just see the victims as just a number, not much-loved individuals, which they were," Miller said.
"It's the most shocking series of names, it's just rank after rank of young people.
"It will be a very emotional day."